thank you for your thoughts and words last night, you guys. truth is, i really just don’t have time to let my emotions out, so i’m just left with this empty, dissociation between my physical self and me. like, i’m just watching myself go through this and when i type up my true feelings, it’s just a body following my commands, but it’s not really me. and this has been going on for months.
i don’t even know what to call that.
hopefully when this time has passed, i’ll be able to give myself some moments to just let it out. for now, i have my blog and my vague descriptions about what’s happening.
thank you all so very much for sticking with me. you’re all so very beautiful and dear to me, and i’m the luckiest person in the world to have such a caring group of people around me. even if i’m like this, i want you to know that i’m here for you, no matter what. if i see that you are upset, i will most likely poke my head in and tell you that i love you and would love to listen. because no matter what, i simply adore other people even if i’m horribly anxious and insecure around them.
you’re the star at the top of my tree.